Day 17: Something you are looking forward to

The most obvious- IVF. I'm ready to get started. I'm sure that it will bring ups and downs. But I'm ready to start. I'm ready to try. Relentless Optimism. I learned that from a friend. (Hi PB!)

What do you wear to meet your eFriends??

I'm meeting some of my favorites from The Bump tonight. After all the online dating I did- meeting strangers from the internet should really be second nature by now. I guess those strangers never knew about my husband's sperm count or when I last had sex with him or what my cervical mucus looks like right now. So strange, yes. But on the other hand- It will be great to meet them.

They have really become more than internet strangers- they are my real life friends now. Can't wait to have a drink with my friends tonight.

Just one thing left to figure out...what to wear?!?!

Day 16.5: My Melt Down

Ok so this *might* not be part of the blogging challenge, but whatever. It's my blog.

I had a minor melt down tonight. One minute we're having a nice little Chinese food picnic on the basement floor watching a movie and the next minute I'm crying my eyes out. (JC loves this about me, PS) A good friend of the family just had a baby. She's like my little sister. I'm very happy for her. Except now if she could just stop sending me pictures of her baby, that would be great.

I'm tired of looking at other people's babies. I'm tired of this being so hard every step of the way. We're doing this big huge hard thing just so we can have a chance to have a baby. Can one thing please just not be hard?

Tomorrow is ultrasound and blood work. Time to get this show on the road.

Day 16: My Dream House

Now that I'm an old married lady- my dream house has changed significantly. Unless my dream house comes with a maid and an unlimited furniture budget- then I'll try to be realistic.

My dream house has:

• A porch that goes the entire length of the house. And there are rocking chairs on it. Like the kind that are outside of a Cracker Barrel.
• Giant closets. JC and I would each have our own separate walk-in closet.
• A three car garage.
• A wood stove. We have one in our current house and it's pretty much the *only* thing I like about it.
• At least an acre (or more if you ask him...) of land around it. This is a JC requirement.
• A fully finished basement.
• A laundry room on the same floor as the bedroom.
• A zip code that isn't in the DC Metro area.

A girl can hope, right??

Day 15: Bible Verse

"For I know the plans I have for you, " declares the Lord, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

I even have it on a magnet. (Thank you to my good friend KT!)

Glass Half Full, kids. Glass Half Full.

**Pardon the Interruption**

I am here to report many things.

1. New Blog Format. You likey?? The Glass Half Full Girl in me thought it needed to be less doom and gloom. So I lightened things up a bit. I'm feeling a little Shiny Happy People lately.

2. Today is CD 1! Normally this would be a doom and gloom post, but this is great news because now it's really going to start. We're getting to FINALLY move forward!

SO- CD 3 blood work and ultrasound is scheduled for Saturday morning. HSG is January 28th. IVF Consult is February 4th.

Holy crap.

Day 14: A Picture You Love

A favorite from my wedding.

Day 13: Goals

My Current Goals:

1. Get pregnant. Duh.

2. Get JC through college as quickly as humanly possible.

3. Drop at least one dress size.

4. Move out of the DC Metro area.

5. Save as much money as I can.

Day 12: What You Believe

Difficult territory for me these days.

I grew up Catholic and when I lost my father, my faith was really made stronger. I became not only a person of great faith, but more religious- went to mass more, prayed more- I guess more outwardly religious.

Somewhere along the way that part got a bit lost and even more recently I have really started to question not the basic beliefs of the Church, but the Church as an Institution. I don't understand how people can believe that God would create something bad. Gay people, for example. Or IVF.
How would I ever be able to take my kids to a Church that believes they aren't natural?

So what DO I believe?

Just a few...

1. I think that most people are good and deserve a chance.
2. I think you get what you give. Good and Bad.
3. I believe that when you die- you get to be with the people you have lost.
4. I agree with my friend Lissasue that essentially God has made things good and man is the one who wrecks it.
5. I think that sometimes science overrides faith.

Day 11: Favorite TV Shows

Our TV is on a lot. I hardly ever watch it. JC is a big TV watcher. Most of it is TV that I could do without. We actually just switched from Comcast to Dish TV in an effort to save a few dollars. JC was going through the channels to see what I wanted and there was nothing in there that I HAD to have. I mean at the end of the day- I'll take the money in savings over the TV any day.

I have had a few that I really enjoyed over time...

*Warning* I am about to admit how lame I am. No judgement here.

1. Dawson's Creek- I loved Pacey Whitter. Loved.
2. Lost- JC and I blew through like every season on Netflix during the blizzard last year and then I got SUPER pissed at how they ended it.
3. Weeds- I loved it until Season 5. And then I didn't love it anymore.
4. Dexter- I hope it stays on forever.
5. The Supernatural- JC got me into this and now I'm in it for Jensen Ackles. Yum.