Saturday, June 18, 2011


I'm in desperate need of a little perspective lately.

A year is a long time when you're trying to make a baby. You live your life by your menstrual cycle and the thought of waiting 12 whole cycles is painful. You'd think I'd be over it by now. You'd think that I would be glad to be living cancer free (well cancer free-ish?) with my healthy husband, enjoying our time together before starting our family.

But I can't seem to focus on anything good at the moment. I know there are plenty of people dealing with things that make my life look like a picnic. I know that we'll be ok. It's just hard to see the good in all this.

Monday, June 13, 2011

Thyroid Levels

TSH = 0.029

The best they've ever been. I cried when I got the email from the endo. And not because they were so good, but because that means I have no idea why I don't feel well. And I hate my body.

Sunday, June 12, 2011

Chocolate HEAVEN!

I spent the weekend in my new favorite place. Hershey, PA.

There in Hershey is this place:

AMAZING. There are chocolate muffins all around. You get fluffy robes to spend the day in. You spend the whole day just being pampered with sugar scrubs and coco butter. I got a massage and a manicure. They have this totally awesome mint shampoo in the showers. I left with super hydrated skin and smelling like a chocolate bar. It's like a little slice of heaven. It was just what I needed.