Hope is gone too. The RE from transfer really kinda sucked the life outta me. And now I've just decided that it's better for me to assume that it hasn't worked and be pleasantly surprised. I think I will also be less upset if I knew that we had some perfect textbook-esque cycle, but let's keep it real- it was far from that.
I've already been researching protocols for poor responders and I'm mentally compiling questions for my WTF appointment.