A year is a long time when you're trying to make a baby. You live your life by your menstrual cycle and the thought of waiting 12 whole cycles is painful. You'd think I'd be over it by now. You'd think that I would be glad to be living cancer free (well cancer free-ish?) with my healthy husband, enjoying our time together before starting our family.
But I can't seem to focus on anything good at the moment. I know there are plenty of people dealing with things that make my life look like a picnic. I know that we'll be ok. It's just hard to see the good in all this.