Negative. I'm feeling like I can really call it a fail now. And I'm FO SHO ready to quit shoving progesterone in my vag. Yesterday was melt down day. I couldn't keep my shit together for nothin. I threw myself a pity party last night and kindly invited my husband. We had a good heart to heart. He talked, I cried. He told me we were going to be ok. And that was what I needed to hear.
I'll keep testing till the beta, but I'm gonna go ahead and say that we'll be moving on to IVF#2 soon.
One thing I've decided is that I told FAR too many people we were doing this. And now it's going to suck to have to tell a billion people that it didn't work. Lesson learned for next time.
So sorry it didn't work. I feel for you. It is so hard and it does suck. Do you meditate? Do you go to a local support group? I want to encourage you to check out Lisa Eaves' group at her office in DC. She is amazing. I took her fertility for meditation class in the fall and she is having another next week:
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She also has monthly drop-ins.....also in DC. I have been to several and it's very helpful....it all still sucks but at least I know I am not alone.
http://heal-from-within.com/fertility-road
Also, here is info from the Fertile Soul......Randine Lewis leads it and she offers amazing advice that maybe you can check out some day...if you ever feel like it. I am almost 40 and wish someone had told me about her years ago. She has done amazing things for people.....
http://www.thefertilesoul.com/
Never give up, Brave One!!!!
~ a fellow struggler
Kathy I am so sorry it didn't work. And I know what you mean about telling people. The sheer sadness from having to inform three support groups (3T, FB group, and COA) not to mentioned telling our families, close friends etc sucked the life out of me.
ReplyDeleteBut I have hope that you'll get ideas out of the WTF and a MUCH smoother cycle for next time. (((BIG HUGS))) <3
I'm so, so sorry. What a let down; I feel like each step forward makes the bad news that much harder to bear. Hopefully they'll have answers/suggestions for what to better next cycle.
ReplyDeleteI'm sorry Hun. That sucks horribly. Why does it have to be so hard? So impossibly hard?
ReplyDeleteWe learned with our first IVF it was best not to tell many people - it's too much pressure.
Thinking of you. Hugs!
I love you friend. I'm always sending continued love and support. <3
ReplyDeleteI'm so sorry, friend. :( I hope you are able to get some answers from your WTF appointment that will give you a great cycle next time. I'm thinking of you and sending lots of love your way. (((HUGS)))
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