Tuesday, April 26, 2011

What would have been....

So today would have been my estimated egg retrival had we gone through IVF. ::le sigh::

Emotionally I've been doing ok. And then I figured out that it would have been today and I got a little sad. In my head, I know that waiting a year isn't a deal breaker. But in my heart it feels like there is just no end in sight to all of this.

The hardest part is that I'm afraid I will spend the next year watching everyone else move forward and I'll still be left behind. Still with no baby.

I just don't want to spend the next year sad. It will just be too much.

6 comments:

  1. I'm sorry Kathy. :(

    - Ya never know

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  2. I'm so sorry. I can't imagine how tough this must be for you to go through :( I hope that as you begin to recovery physically from the surgery, you'll be able to find lots of fun ways to take your mind off of the waiting!

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  3. Big hugs to you, sweetie.

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  4. You ARE moving forward - just not at the pace you expected. Every day is one day closer, even if it takes 365 of them. ((hugs))

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  5. Love you! You have a great group of friends that are here for you and will support you every step of the way ((huge hugs))

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