Friday, December 10, 2010

Bitter Betty?

Someone called me bitter today. Ok, so it was on the interwebz, but still. Bitter. Me. Whaaat? Am I?

Ok, so *maybe* I'm having a bitter day. But just maybe.

My sister is pregnant again. Her kids will be 1 year and 20 days apart. Irish Twins. I LOVE my nephew. He is so cute and so sweet. I love him the most. Today I found out that Baby #2 is a girl. And instead of having happy thoughts about dressing up my niece and going to ballet recitals and playing with her dolls- I was green with envy and 100% jealous. My mom called me and was so excited and already shopping and I was trying not to cry on the phone. So now she'll have one of each before I'll even be pregnant. She has officially stolen all the grandchild thunder right out from under me.

Disclaimer: In reality- I am thrilled. I love being an aunt and I will love having a niece. I would never say any of this to my sister, it's my own internal crazy.

Infertility seriously BLOWS.

6 comments:

  1. You're allowed your bitter days. And of course you're happy for your sister, but that doesn't make it sting any less. Hoping you get to share your own good news with your family very soon. ((hugs))

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  2. Whoa! I'm sorry, Kathy! I definitely don't think you're bitter. Some people just have no idea.

    ((hugs))

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  3. ProcrastinatingBrideDecember 10, 2010 at 2:33 PM

    I'm so sorry, Kathy. Never listen to women on the interwebs. ;) They don't know what they're talking about anyway.

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  4. Kathy, you play the cards you've been dealt with so much grace and patience. Some douche on the internet may say dumb things, but they don't know you and can't possibly think enough to put themself in someone else's shoes. I've said it before, but I am thinking about you and praying for a little miracle every cycle for you!

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  5. What would I do without you girls? I'm so thankful for all of you. You keep me sane on my most insane days. <3 you all.

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  6. Big hugs Kathy! I'm sorry someone called you bitter. But, bitter you are not. There is absolutely nothing wrong with you feeling this way.

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