I have no idea how to deal with this.
How do I not cry every day because JC and I may never have children? How do I explain it to my family? How will I ever be able to go to a baby shower without having a break down? How do I not avoid people all together because faking it is just too hard right now?
I don't know how to do any of those things. Not yet.
I am so sorry that you are going through this. I know how tuff it is. I wish that I had an answer on how to get through these things, but even after 4 years of trying, I still have a hard time. I read a poem once on the bump, on how much more we would appretiate gods gift of a child because it was carefully planned. Although that gives me hope, the anger and hurt still lies within. If you would ever like to chat send me a message or check out my blog.
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