New Car and a Call Out

A strange combo, huh?
We bought a new car today- a 2011 Honda Insight. This one's not mine, but it looks like this:

It's a hybrid and gets about 40 miles to the gallon. Compared to the 17 that I get now- it will almost pay for itself in the gas savings alone. It's cute and I like it.

So Car Sales Guy sold us our Pilot also (we're turning into Honda whores). So we're waiting- always a lot of waiting when you buy a car- and he says to me "Is that scar on your neck new?" Um, yes. I have cancer. Thanks for bringing it up. Appreciate that. We keep talking- idle chit chat and he wants to know why we have no kids. Um, yes. Infertile. Again- thanks for bringing it up.

Seriously- I can't escape this shit. My one small victory of the night was learning that my credit score is 4 points higher than my husband's. I could tell that it bothered him and I kind of loved it.

PS- Low Iodine Egg Salad, while green and odd looking- tastes ok.

Low Iodine: Day 1

Today was my first real day on my low iodine diet. NOT FUN.

Here's what I ate:

Breakfast
Plain Cream of Wheat
Banana

Lunch
Watermelon
Dried Pineapple
Grilled Zucchini and Peppers with Mrs. Dash

Dinner
Orzo Pasta Salad- Made with my homemade vinaigrette dressing with grape tomatoes and grilled asparagus

I did get a low iodine cookbook from the hospital (you can take a peek at it HERE) and tomorrow I plan on making some of the bread-ish items. Bread and cheese are what I miss the most. I did some cooking tonight so tomorrow I won't have to do so much. I made Asian cole slaw, egg salad (made with avocado instead of mayo- the jury is still out on this one), and I still have some orzo salad left.

The SUPER sucky part is that I think it will be 100% impossible for me to eat in a restaurant with these restrictions. I just can't control the way the food is prepared. JC and I are supposed to go out of town this weekend and I'm already stressing out about what food I'll have to bring with me.

Stupid fucking cancer.

Low Iodine Diet: FAIL!

I'm supposed to start my low iodine diet today. I'm sitting here drinking my Starbucks- full of dairy which is a big low iodine no no. I was away all weekend and was highly unprepared for all that low iodine meant. It means a lot of shopping and a lot of cooking. Not cool, man.

Low Iodine means that until I get out of the hospital- July 21st- I can't have: dairy products (goodbye cheese- I miss you already!), processed breads/crackers, anything with iodized salt, seafood, or soy. So pretty much all I can eat is fresh fruits and veggies, and chicken or beef. Plain. No marinades or dressings (most have salt in them). I know it's temporary, but it sucks. It's just this huge reminder that I have cancer and I'm about to go through treatment for it. I'd rather just eat cheese and forget about the cancer part.

A Weekend Away

JC and I went to Upstate New York this weekend for his niece's graduation. It's like another planet up there compared to where we live. He's from a very small town near the Finger Lakes. It's really pretty, but REALLY small. Everyone knows everyone. Most people are somehow related. There's not a lot to do except hang out at the American Legion and drink. Good thing I brought my own designated driver! I wish I had pictures, but I was a huge slacker and didn't even take one! It was really nice to get away for the weekend. I love my sister-in-law and her family. They are so much fun to hang out with.

It was good timing- I needed a little pick me up and some good time with my husband.

Perspective

I'm in desperate need of a little perspective lately.

A year is a long time when you're trying to make a baby. You live your life by your menstrual cycle and the thought of waiting 12 whole cycles is painful. You'd think I'd be over it by now. You'd think that I would be glad to be living cancer free (well cancer free-ish?) with my healthy husband, enjoying our time together before starting our family.

But I can't seem to focus on anything good at the moment. I know there are plenty of people dealing with things that make my life look like a picnic. I know that we'll be ok. It's just hard to see the good in all this.

Thyroid Levels

TSH = 0.029

The best they've ever been. I cried when I got the email from the endo. And not because they were so good, but because that means I have no idea why I don't feel well. And I hate my body.

Chocolate HEAVEN!

I spent the weekend in my new favorite place. Hershey, PA.

There in Hershey is this place: http://www.chocolatespa.com/

AMAZING. There are chocolate muffins all around. You get fluffy robes to spend the day in. You spend the whole day just being pampered with sugar scrubs and coco butter. I got a massage and a manicure. They have this totally awesome mint shampoo in the showers. I left with super hydrated skin and smelling like a chocolate bar. It's like a little slice of heaven. It was just what I needed.