1 year down...

Sunday was my 1st Wedding Anniversary. My head was in a bit of a fog. I felt bad for being distracted, but with the recent news of the loss of Charlotte- it was hard to be in the moment.

Despite all else that was going on- I realized that I truly, truly married the BEST man for me. He is such a good partner in our relationship and so, so, so good to me. He expects nothing of me except for me to be myself. And that makes me love him even more.

Happy Anniversary JC- I love you the most.

Sad News

I got some of the saddest news I've heard in a long time yesterday. My good friend MH introduced me to The Bump when JC and I started trying to have babies early this year. She loved the community and got me involved. She got pregnant shortly after I began posting and her second little girl was due December 2nd. I got the terrible news on Saturday that MH lost her sweet baby at 37 weeks. I can't even imagine what she is going through. I am desperate to find something I can do to help, but right now all I can do is pray.

So please remember in your prayers little Charlotte Leigh- born sleeping 11/13/2010. She is a new angel in heaven.

Super Sperm

Just wanted to introduce you to my new mascot! I was telling JC that he is busy spending the next three months building Super Sperm. The story continued and we both decided that if they had capes, it would probably be best. The capes would probably help them swim better. So there he is- cape and all.

So go now, JC...build Super Sperm!!

Thankful Thursday

Thankful Thursday...The RESULTS edition!

JC's Testosterone level without Clomid and Arimidex: 253

JC's Testosterone level with 4 weeks of Clomid and Arimidex: 470!!!

I think this Thankful Thursday speaks for itself.

Stalking

I've started stalking the Urologist's office. We should find out today or tomorrow (cross your fingers for today) if JC's testosterone numbers have gone up since being on Clomid and Arimidex. We talked about it last night before going to be for like 5 minutes and I ended up in tears again. (duh- should have expected that) I can't help it- the anxiety builds up for me and I automatically assume the worst. We've had so much bad news this summer. I can't help but think that it will continue.

One call in to the doctor so far. I'm totally calling again after lunch.

Thankful Thursday

I've been a thankful slacker. Today is Thankful Thursday. Today I am thankful for my mom. I have a mother who would lay down in traffic for me. I'm thankful that I have a good relationship with her and that I live so close to her. I know I take her for granted sometimes and I need to be better about that. I could never repay her for all she has given me. She is such a good example of selfless love and what it means to be a great mother.

The Nerves Return

JC goes for blood work tomorrow to see if the cocktail of drugs he's on is working to help his testosterone levels. Every step throws me back onto pins and needles. No idea what happens if this cocktail isn't working. But please throw out some good positive blood work thoughts for me, blog readers. I need all I can get.