I swear I'm alive.

And still pregnant. It's just not until recently until I can stay awake long enough to do anything productive.

I've been so anxious about this baby. Do you tell or do you not tell? How do you have any idea if things are going ok in there? You're just counting the minutes until the next ultrasound and trying not to go totally insane.

I had to find a new OB cause I moved. So I did that and turns out that I kind of love him. And he's kinda cute too. That helps. He made me feel like things would be ok. Gave me a pap and said I'll see you in four weeks. Um, what? 4 WHOLE WEEKS? I'm totes used to Le Baby Factory where they talk to you daily. I don't do well with 4 weeks in between. Gah!

So to ease the pain of the wait- I ordered a doppler. Except then I could never find the heartbeat. And the anxiety got worse. J FINALLY found it for me about two days before the NT Scan. PHEW. I scheduled my NT Scan and first trimester screening for Friday July 5th. I had the day off so we headed to the MFM. The ultrasound was ah-maz-ing. No more is the babe a blob or a gummy bear looking creature, but it looks like a for serious baby. And you could see everything. Little heart beating away. Arms and legs wiggling around. Unreal. All of that going on inside my body while I don't feel a thing. Just unreal. We had great measurements and now just waiting for blood work to come back. The MFM likes to monitor IVF patients (and told me he knows that I'm going through ultrasound withdrawal) so he's having me come back at 16 weeks just for a growth scan. Thank you sweet baby jebus. I would hate to have to wait till 20 weeks. Nightmare.

Anyway- I'm doing great. We've told the world about the baby. And I'll blog again. Pinky swear.

Meet My Baby

One perfect little baby. Heart beating away at 120 beats per minute. Already the love of my life.

May 28, 2013 6w6d

Then today I got this. 8w2d Heart still beating away in there. 

I said goodbye to my nurse and my RE. And now I'm just a regular pregnant lady. What?? I'm a pregnant lady. So surreal. So thankful for every day with that little heartbeat. 

Last Beta

6839! Whoa. Maybe there really are two baking in there.

No more betas. Now we wait for the big show. Ultrasound. I'm scheduled for 5/28. LONGEST.WAIT.EVER.

In the meantime, I'm moving back in with my Mom this weekend. Well WE'RE moving in with my Mom. I guess J and Boo Kitty can come too. And then right after that my Mom's having heart surgery. It's gonna be a loooong two weeks. I need it to be June.

Beta #2!

1930! That's a doubling time of 42.5 hours. I'm feeling good about the numbers. So now just one more beta and then we'll schedule the ultrasound. And in the meantime, we'll move. Ugh. Why can't we ever just do one thing at a time??

Beta #1 is in!

883. Um, is this real life?? 883. Holy Crap.
Repeat beat is Thursday.

Yep. Still pregnant.

This is so shameful. Cause that's not even all of them. I've been peeing on lots-o-sticks. Lots. But my lines are getting darker and they appear faster. And for now- I'll take that as a good sign. Beta is like a billion trillion years away. Sike- it's on Tuesday, but it feels like it will never come. It's also next to impossible to not to tell every.single.person. Worst Best Secret of LIFE.

6dp5dt

Maybe not an evap line, huh?

Holy Shit. I'm having a baby. I'm going to be a MOM. 

Beta is still over a week away. That's like forever.

PS- If I know you IRL- NOT a peep about this. NADA. I haven't even told my Mom yet.